Lisa Coe writes The Rector’s Wife’s Blog
Posted by website janitor on January 24th, 2012Heart Matters.
February, it’s all about hearts! You may be feverishly scanning the shelves for Valentine cards (new relationship) or just musing on how you could buy a magazine for the price of a card these days (less new relationship. Don’t look at me, I’m just saying some might!) And while people are thinking of the emotional state of their hearts, they can think about their real beating ones (thanks British Heart Foundation). Any attention called to heart health/awareness is a good idea. For most people there’s a lot of things they can do to help themselves with the right information and support. I can’t believe that Valentine, who is after all a saint and therefore should be pretty understanding about these sorts of things, wouldn’t mind sharing his day for the sake of the nation’s health. And of course I have a vested interest in matters of the heart.
It has been a year since I began my enquiries to find out, as far as possible, if my condition, Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy, is inherited. When we began tests at the University Hospital in London I was told it would be a while before they could be reasonably sure one way or another. The funding wasn’t able to support all the research being done for heart disease so, like all good English folk, I took my place in the queue and waited. In the meantime of course, life doesn’t. Kate is expecting her baby in March and we await our first grandchild with huge excitement. And now there’s a new disquieting thought; if it’s an inherited gene, there’s a possibility it can be passed on to my grandchild.
As the owner of a damaged heart, I often find myself thinking of Psalm 139 and what it means to be ‘fearfully and wonderfully’ made. The endless potential of humanity, its depth and breadth captured in two words. David was a master poet! I don’t think Mary Shelly for all her literary genius topped that, even as she was knitting Frankenstein’s creation together. A single cell dividing and containing every piece of information ever required to become a human being is mind blowing. If the very action of being created isn’t conviction enough of a creator then I’m not sure what is. This is very much on my mind as I see the first scan of our grandchild at twelve weeks. The design of the human being is awesome. ‘I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made’. But not perfectly made. Not this side of heaven.
We don’t yet know if a rogue gene plays a part in our family health. So many others are in a ‘waiting room’ too hoping for the best, dreading the worst. And yet as Christians we know it’s not about perfect bodies but about a relationship with and a hope in God. This is where we learn to trust. In our most unfixable maybe broken state, this is where we learn that God will speak into our circumstances. He does know, He does care and He still has things to say in and through our most helpless of infirmities. For all of us in our waiting rooms, let’s wait with hope and expectation.
Love in Jesus,
Lisa
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